crying crying

that is what I am doing. today was way to overwhelming, the stupid partylite website is being overloaded so it works slow and acts up, with in 3 hrs I had to be ten places all on different sides of ferndale, bellingham, then my niece spent the night with me, she is only 1 1/2 and she reminds me of my daughter who is 14 and I miss being needed how in the hell do I have empty nest, when all my children are still here with me they are all older though and my husband and I can't have any more children. All I want to do is hold my little babys and watch our movie Thumblina, but they are not little any more and I am only 31 so what the hell is wrong with me . why can't I stop crying. We got in a fight (my daughter and I over her hair) and I said some very mean things and I feel so bad too . But I worry about her and all I want to do is protect her. So I think I got in a fight with her just be close to her because she seems so far away even though she lives in the same house. Her life is changing and I am having a hard time with letting go of my little girl. I don't want her to grow up. but she is going to . It sucks and I don't have to like it .